Thursday, April 29, 2010 ♥
♥ 2:20 PM
Being alone at home is not a good thing, nor a fun thing too. Half been home for half a month without a job, and most of the time would be studying, studying and studying. Nothing fun, except some flashbacks of my young life.
Things were much simpler at that time. Optimistic me, trust everyone around me. I believe that if you treat people good, they will treat you good in return too. I believe in "happy-go-lucky", thus no matter how badly I fall, I would tell myself to stand up and smile, and everything will be fine.
Everything had changed now; almost everything. I'm no more trusting people easily, and I don't believe that people will treat you good in return, unless they have some motives to you. I'm saying things sarcastically, cuz this is how they say it to me. Things around me had changed me, indirectly. Be it good or bad, but at least this is the survival skill I've learnt. Stop being a silly girl, a kind girl that always give a helping hand. You may, but depends on some situation. Some may even landed you to a pile of shit, a disgusting one.
I'm still missing the times when I can laughed til cry, when I'm holidaying without worries of studies and works, and enjoying the taste of freedom. I miss swimming in the sea, the view of white sand and the deep clear sea blue. I miss climbing up high, watching sunsets with loved one, with laughter and joy.
Will time ever rolls back?
When will be the next time I'm doing all these again?