current mood : touching

a few minutes ago, i was stil crying in the bathroom... sorry girls, guys... i tot i could take it, but actually i couldn't.. i juz cant let go.... he left me at the wrong time....
i started to feel uneasy in this house, and he juz left me like that.

but juz when i opened my tagboard page, i saw a lot of encouraging advises, a lot of my frens r actually alwiz standing by my side, helping me to stand up once again. thanks a lot frens, thanks peiwen, serene, yong hwee and paw.. thanks a lot... u girls and guys really rox my world.

hubby,
i alwiz loved u.. i never stop loving u for even a second, or less. no matter how many times u hurt me, no matter how many times u make my tears drop, i never counted on that, i forgive ur every mistake. i alwiz have been the one to give in, 
both ur mistake and my mistake, i give in. but do u know, everytime u ask y is it that u dun have competitor, it really breaks my heart.. y muz u hurt me so much? is it becuz u know that i love u more than u do in return? is it a mistake?

u really does bring a lot of joy, laughter and sweet memories to me. but dear, if i was to list out both sweet and sad, i think the sad moment is more... i've been hanging on in the far relationship for 2 years, and now when i'm here, u keep on breaking my heart. u really do not realise that? or u're ignoring it? is having a competitor in relationship that important? y is it my love life has to be so suffering? i couldn't take it anymore... i really couldn't... i duno if u wil suddenly come across my blog and read this, but i juz wanna say, i'm letting off... maybe after this, i wont step in into another relationship le, as my heart belongs to u forever. i love u... byez...