current mood : lost

ya, i'm lost... i duno what to do, i'm totally lost in space.. is love really so hard? y is it my love life had to be so suffering? i'm tired.... i've been hanging on for so long, and now, he requested it juz as cool as he is. perhaps... he's really too smart for me... i've tried all my best, but he juz cant see it. cant he feel it too? i'm so tired.. guys, is it really that important to have a competitor in ur relationship with ur gf? is beauty really that counts? if it's a yes for u, then sorry, i might not be the one. but i know what's great in me. i can really be loyal to my bf, that's the greatest advantage having me as gf.. LOL!! haha.. but sorry ye guys, might not consider another relationships anymore after this. i told yong hwee b4 too, if this relationship doesn't work for me, i wil not trust love anymore. i'm so hurt by the one i love most...

last 2 days (friday), we went for class outing, and i had my 1st-ever-neoprints!!! LOL! ya, quite embarrasing, this is only the 1st..  haha, but i like it a lot man!!! i look so nice in those pic!!! hahaha... erm, ya, bhb le...   =p

  nice right? hahaha... 4 of us look so cute in it.
 hehe, smile!!!!!
 hm... i look weird in this though... >.<
 love this pic the most!! hehe.. the autumn leave is so nice!

ya, that's 4 of us, peiwen, serene, lao da and me. thanks a lot girls! u all really brighten my days.. was so happy that day!

okie, that's last 2 days, am gonna blog bout today!!! early in the morning, i woke up with a NICE swallon eyes, had to wait til it looks not that obvious, and then went to the jurong east library to get my project done. gosh, ya, on sunday! but it was not a bad day today as i tot, i did enjoyed myself too, went to play bball with lao da, serene and peiwen, but as me and lao da played it for the 1st time, we look like dumb girls, hardly score anything. but lao da was better than me stil. though i tried very hard to aim it. haha.. wanna burst out in sum games, hope can feel better ba.

then after that game, here's the main event of the day, milubing's autograph session!!!!!!!!!! no no no, u cant imagine how feng and enthu i am, sam is so kawaii!!!!! he juz simply rox man!!! nick too! sam melts my heart by his smile, so sweet!!! and nick, i like him when he plays guitar! wow man, i was so high, but not as high as his crazy fans la, dint shout nor buy his album too.. >.<>hahahaha.. we support them mentally k? LOL!!!

i catched bout 35 photos, and 1 video of their song, lei 
(but my hp hangs during the last part.. wth  =.=")

finally, when they're bout to get into their van, heading to mediacorp i think, i was standing right in the front!!! hahahaha... hm, tot wanna catch a clear photo of them, but i think it would be better if i can at least give them a sweet smile, since i said i wil mentally support them.. =p

thus, i waited, and when they came out, i smile to sam, the 1st guy walking in front, he looked at me, but as he was walking too fast, he could juz grasp a second of my sweet smile. oh noooooooo.... but for that second i felt that my heart stops beating.. hahahaha... nvm then, nick the 2nd, but he was not looking at me... WTH!!! ok then, wei qi, i smiled, then he smiled back to me man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh!!! feng diao! he's not that bad looking though, he looks like a good guy, with a good and humble presonality. hahaha.. ya, 3 of them killed me today...

here r some of the photos, i couldn't upload til 35 of them, sorry.. hahaha!!!
 
sam's looking at my direction!!! =p
 sorry, stand quite far, u see, so to get it clearer and nearer, have to zoom, so it's so small now.. hahaha...
 was trying and waiting so long to get this pic! his fans keep blocking me... wth!! hahaha.... sam, u really kawaii man!!!! ^^
 
no....!!!! he didn't wave to me!!!! *sob sob*
 saw sam? that's the moment b4 he saw my sweet smile!!!

haha... guess that's all for today. hope i can get a nice rest tonight.. anne, juz stay as strong as u r... sort out ur feelings, u dun have to depend on guys to survive... u'll be extremely fine on ur own. hm, that's me giving advises to myself.. hahaha... no, i'm not mad yet.. hahaha!! bye!!!