i don't know what to say, i juz feeling bit numb..
i juz realised, it has been very long since i can smiled sweetly
and naturally.. the world is pushing me into a corner,
where i'd to force myself to hide every
emotion, and start pretending..

and now, i've forgotten how to smile.
can i ever find back my happy-go-lucky personality i had
before? this world is too harsh for me..
but i know, whether i like it or not, it's so. betrayal.. lies...
i used to have a principe,that i will not be-friend
to any of those who betrays or lie to me..
but i juz realise, can i really do it so? if i really did folo it,
then i will not have any friends at all..
thus, i've learn the word "pretending".
nowadays, i love the song "jia zhuang" by jolin tsai.
it really reflects my situation now.
pretend to be alright, laugh, joke,
but deep inside my heart, i'm trying very hard to hang on.
i'm a strong girl, and this wil never change, no matter what.

dun worry, i'm stil alright. wil get used to it soon...
here, i show u my fishy,
the only 1 who is willing to accompany me..