oo.. so sad.. 1 of my fish juz died this morning.. haihz....
cant really sleep well last night, cant fall asleep..
exams are around the corner, and yet.. i stil cant concentrate studying..
and oops... i juz skipped a lecture this morning.. wahaha..
lazy le.. it's so boring..

i'm so depressed these few days.. duno wat had happened to me..
feeling extra loneliness than ever.. but luckily, i stil have bunch of good frens,
who are stil willing to stay at my side.. love them so much!

but i cant let myself go any weaker. stand up once again,
for one and all to see.. keke.. i muz...
cuz i realise sumthing, if u wan others to appreciate u, firstly
u muz aprreciate u urself... i wont let myself fall any deeper..
what johnson ge said is true, happy-go-lucky is alwiz my words...
y muz i 'fang qi' (give up) ne?

stand up once again ba... i can do it...


i don't know what to say, i juz feeling bit numb..
i juz realised, it has been very long since i can smiled sweetly
and naturally.. the world is pushing me into a corner,
where i'd to force myself to hide every
emotion, and start pretending..

and now, i've forgotten how to smile.
can i ever find back my happy-go-lucky personality i had
before? this world is too harsh for me..
but i know, whether i like it or not, it's so. betrayal.. lies...
i used to have a principe,that i will not be-friend
to any of those who betrays or lie to me..
but i juz realise, can i really do it so? if i really did folo it,
then i will not have any friends at all..
thus, i've learn the word "pretending".
nowadays, i love the song "jia zhuang" by jolin tsai.
it really reflects my situation now.
pretend to be alright, laugh, joke,
but deep inside my heart, i'm trying very hard to hang on.
i'm a strong girl, and this wil never change, no matter what.

dun worry, i'm stil alright. wil get used to it soon...
here, i show u my fishy,
the only 1 who is willing to accompany me..





nothing interesting happens today.. 
juz have a great turning in my dance sport, 
which after that i could see a lot of stars.. =x 
keke... quite nice though... 

there's a fren of mine, who simply loves to bring up our results
and compare with others. argh!! hate her so much!!
cant she juz stop it? juz get lost of my life!
and i'm serious bout it! get lost!!

ok.. let's forget bout her..
so sick of her, that i too numb already..
i started to miss my penang frens now..
those brothers and sisters i have at there.. 
wonder how r they now... shall never forget u guys...  

going sleep soon... tired.. zzZZzz...